hi jrb... i haven't talked to you in over two years and i've been thinking about you everyday. i think you know that i loved you and you didn't feel the same. two years later and i honestly still am, even though you have definitely put me in your past. you have such a kind soul and i would do anything for you. i wish you i still had you in my life. you made me smile so big even when i didn't feel like it. i really hope your doing well and you probably are. i just wish i could ask you. i've tried reconnecting but it just didn't work. it's almost like i'm just a stranger to you and it breaks my heart. you were absolutely my first love and i will never not love you. i wish we could start over. i'm not who i used to be. that girl was so weird and annoying and not who i am today. i'm sorry if i was such a burden to you back then. i just wish you knew how deeply i felt about you and i wish i knew how you feel about me. but i love you. you deserve the world. even though you didn't love me the same way back.. you still made me feel like i was enough. i will forever be grateful that i got the chance to know you and have you as a friend. i hope one day we will reconnect. i hope that day is soon.
love,
jj

I still look at the film photos I took of you sweet boy. I secretly pray you’ve been waiting for me