Unsent messages to JOONA

I forgive you. If you still want we could talk things fully through.

I wish is such a stupid way to start a sentence. I wish we weren’t such an awful clusterfuck of miscommunications. I wish we didn’t play games with each other. I wish we stayed real with each other. I wish we didn’t make each other hurt just because we were scared of our own feelings for each other. I wish you were ready for me. I wish there was a way to bring us back. I wish I would stop missing you, and thinking about you every spare moment I have. I wish I could get out of bed because of you, I now have too many spare moments that I cannot afford.