Unsent messages to JERIKO

hope it will be the last ! :)

you’re too high to reach

i spent a long ass time heartbroken over you. it was painful as hell but it isn't your fault. we never even dated lmao. I don't know why I felt that why I really don't. I always regretted the way I acted towards you when you told me you didn't love me anymore because of your dads death. I'm sorry jeriko. I don't love you anymore. honestly I don't know if I ever did love you or if I loved the idea of you. but when you left a part of me left with you. but that part of me is gone now. I became a better person but the little girl who fell in love with you is gone. I spent years wondering why I wasn't good enough for you and it made me feel as though I was never enough for me either. I don't think you know the true impact you had on me. now I feel like I'm good enough for me. after you, I couldn't love anybody else but myself. I spent so much damn time trying to win over your intention and prove to you I've changed. I could go on for hours lmao but I'm j gonna stop here.

I liked you so much that I hurt myself, I walked away from you so as not to cry every night but it was useless because I kept waiting for you ...