I deleted your number, its time for me to move on. I'm tired of putting in all of the effort. I dont think I'll ever stop having these feelings for you. For some God awful reason I can't get you out of my mind and its just bringing me back to a dark place. There have been too many times where I ruin myself because of a guy and I cant let that happen again. I've tried to talk to other people to forget about you but none of them are you. You'll always have a special place in my heart no matter how much I try to forget about you. I always think of what could've been with us. I want to thank you for our little adventures you showed me so many beautiful places. You've showed me new music, movies, and food and for all of that I am thankful. Most importantly you showed me that its possible to be happy even when I thought it was the end of the world and for that I thank you so so much. I was willing to wait for you to be ready to start dating but once you said you were open to seeing other people I knew it was never going to happen. I know you'll never tell me what happened that changed your mind about me because you were just as crazy about me as I was you. You've said it countless times that you wanted to date me and take me on dates and it just sucks because I like you so much. I know that one day you're going to come back expecting me to come crawling back to you like I always do but I won't this time. I've run out Jan. You'll realize how much I truly cared about you and all of the love I wouldve given. I've gotten the chance to love you but I haven't gotten the chance to fall in love with you. I wish I did. I know you'll come back I probably won't answer or if I do I'll probably pretend that I don't know its you even though I know your number by heart. I'll never forget about you, you've made such an impact in my life. You're a special one j bean I just wish things were different between us. Please take the advice I gave you and don't do this to another girl save her the pain because I wouldn't wish this upon anyone. Im going to miss you a lot. Never change who you are. Please. One of the happiest memories I have is when I accidentally woke you up and you pushed some hair out of my face with this look of pure admiration gave me a kiss on the cheek and pulled me closer to you. That definitely is in my top 10 of happiest moments in life. You're going to be a hard one to forget but its time that I know my worth. Its time for our story to end. You can always reach out to me when you're in a bad place or any emergency. I'll always be there for you. I love you.