No you aren't my first love but you are my second. you know nothing about what goes on in my head. It is just you, there, constantly and it hurts to not be able to tell you how much everything you do means to me. I know you aren't appreciated enough by your family, or some of your friends and I want to be able to show you how important you are and how badly this world needs you in it. from the second I saw your smile, the thought of you wouldn't leave my mind. out of all the smiles I've seen yours is the most pure, bright, open, beautiful one I've ever seen. being able to see your smile is enough to keep me alive, and I will do anything to keep you happy. I know there is good inside you, when I look into your eyes that is all I see but you cover all your problems up by trying to act "cool". I know we are just friends right now, but I want to be able to do everything with you. I want to be able to help you through everything, I'll always be here as a shoulder to cry on no matter what happens. when I first noticed I had feelings for you, at that time you had fallen for my best friend just like everyone does. that's just always what happens right. they go for the short, "quirky", rude dark haired girl who doesn't give two shits about your existence. I had to watch you look at her and talk to her as if you wanted to stay with her and never leave, while she was clueless and I was the one who wanted the same with you. yeah eventually those feelings went away, we got closer and now we're really good friends but I just wish you could feel how warm my heart gets when I do things with you. the times we snuck out, got snacks and walked down town singing to loud music and not caring about anything else. when it was four in the morning, our parents thought we were fast asleep and we were just in a neighborhood watching this house burn down. the times when you'd walk me home after those nights. especially that one night we were hanging out in your garage looking at your old family pictures, sitting beside each other in the silence, you were just flipping through the pictures but I couldn't seem to stop staring at you. that's the moment I knew for sure I fell for you. but as far as I know you feel nothing for me. I'm just another friend to do dumb shit with.

hey lol.
i miss being your happiness.
i miss being your best friend.
i miss giving you the love you deserved.
i miss being goofy with you.
i miss facetime calls with you.
i miss you laugh.
i miss your smile and the way you looked at me.
i miss you

I haven’t seen u in months but i think about you everyday. i love you SO much but idk how to tell u

the more i try to let you go, the stronger my pull back to you becomes. why is that?

that fleeting moment where you didn't recognize me and i played along, it was nice. thank you

everytime i listen to big city blues by lil peep i think of u. i wish i could see u more i love u

I’m so proud of you. Reach out if you need me, I’ll always be there.

Would like to reach out. Not sure if you'd be open to it tho