sometimes i think you not giving a shit about me during the break up made it worse. but it also makes it easier for me to see how terrible you are. i will always love you in many different ways. but i understand that what we had, wasn't it. i've learned a lot about myself since then. and i have began to separate your existence from mine, which i never intended nor wanted. but i can't see us together anymore. your existential being is not with me anymore. it never was.
but anyways, i hope you're doing well, issa. i hope you always do well. i wish you still cared about me, though.
i wish you gave some sort of a damn about me. but it doesn't matter now and it never will again.
see you in another life, mi amor.

I can’t wait to see all of the amazing things you will do from the sidelines. I’m not in your life anymore, but it was a gift to be a part of you for the time I was. I hope she will enjoy it as much as I did. You’d have to be blind to not see how amazing you are. I love you. And I’m glad you’ve found it in yourself to love again. I hope I can find that one day too.

I can't imagine us together anymore.
Not just our physical beings, but our entire existences. I can only imagine you as you and me as me, never a we.
I can't can't comprehend what I saw in you anymore?
I can't understand why I spent so long with you.
All that time,
wasted.

I notice myself coming here a lot, not because I'm not over you, but because I feel the desire to speak these things, my thoughts, into existence. Maybe you'll understand one day, even if you never read any of it.

I don't check any of your socials anymore. I'm proud of myself for that.
I hope you check mine. You fucking dirt bag.

jeremie mentioned sextopia and it made me remember that you are still in existence. you do exist. we're doing the same thing still. that baffles me.
also jeremie brought up that you literally brainwash every person in your life. you do. i was vulnerable when we met, very open to change and you took advantage. now? wouldn't happen that way. i know better now and i'm stronger. you manipulate all your friends to hate me, for nothing.
i've done nothing wrong to you, i can self reflect and understand my wrongs.
i never did you wrong.
you? the list goes on. and on.
how could you do that to me?
how issa?
fuck you. i never want you back in my life. i hope we never cross paths again. once was enough for me.

i miss you a lot tonight. i wish things turned out differently. i wish i was there with you. i hope you are well, amor.

it used to be easier for me to ignore all my feelings and try to forget your existence but now it’s easier to act like you never left

i have a car now, my own. and i keep imagining going to you. driving the 6 hours. it wouldn’t be hard. but this also makes me question, why didn’t you ever do it? you did have your own car, and then mariam’s. in the seven months we spent together, you couldn’t spare 6 hours. there was always an excuse, issa.
i love you, and i know you loved me, but where was that effort you knew i desired?

hi issa i’ve had a terrible day and it just keeps getting worse and i want to talk to u but i don’t think u want me back in ur life ever and i cant keep doing this to u so i don’t know what the fuck i’m gonna do

I love you so much handsome you mean the world to me ml. Thank you sm for being the best bf ever

i wish you didn’t live 15 hours away, i really like you

hey, what’s with the unfriend/unfollow thing? i don’t understand

You‘ll always have a special space in my heart, Nobodys ever gonna have.

I cant seem to really forget you. After all, i loved you for three years.

May Allah bring us back together and never separate us again.

I will love you forever

ive loved u since 2019. we'll never be tg but ill still love you forever. forever my boy.

Am I naive to think that you could be the love of my life?

Will you remember me more than just a girl who has the same hobby as yours?

would you hate me if I ended up saying the same thing twice

Meeting you was the highlight of my life, I’ll love you forever

rmbr you pink promised no matter what happened we’d never leave each others side?

I really wish we could just go back to what it was, what WE were

I can’t forgive you please come back to me so I could tell you that I love you so much

If there was a room full of everyone I’ve ever loved, I’d look for you first.

I lowkey miss you and our future

Why are you changing on me

i know it’s too early but i never loved anyone that much

i loved you but it didn’t work out i’m letting you go but i’ll always wish you the best xo

I miss you

You’re so special to me. Always have been and always will be my Issa.