It took me so long to realize that you were not good for me. I was whole when we meet but you broke me. You shattered me into pieces.

I'm not sure if I love you or just hate myself enough to enjoy the pain you caused me. You cheated on me so many times, gaslighted me, told me to get over my miscarriage and the most painful part convinced me to abort our second pregnancy. Yet despite this, I still long for you. How sick and twisted I am.