Unsent messages to GABOR

I love you, please don’t leave, i begging you

I still think about you daily.

I fell in love with you since day one. and i know you felt the chemistry too. i feel so sorry that you have a gf. I controlled my feelings and pushed you away with my behaviour cuz i felt guilty to love you... that day in the hospital, seeing you lay there.. i did not even know you that much but it gave me pain. seeing you hurt and in pain gave me pain. i know you looked through me, you are that smart. why did you invite me for breakfast and anime? why did you invite me late at nights? did you really wanna try something with me, or you were clear from the beginning you saw me only as a friend?? i won't tell anybody... just please tell me. i promise.