i loved the way your hair smelled when we sat together and it brushed by me, I loved your eyes and how they were a golden brown like the sun, I loved your smile, the real one when your cheeks would get all pushed up, I loved your laugh, I cant even remember how it sounded but I know it would fill up a room. Knowing that I forgot your laugh hurts. I loved the way you would say my name when I would come into the room, it always echoed. You were the light in my life. When I was with you time stopped. Nothing mattered when we were together except for us. I miss you. And I hate what I did to you. Knowing what I do know now, I should have been so much kinder to you. I know you feel how I do sometimes, and I’m so sorry. I wish we hadn’t met sometimes because it would take all this pain away but sometimes this pain is the only thing that is keeping me going. I need to let go, but right now it is impossible. You’re always gonna have my heart. I think our souls will always be together even if I slowly forgot your touch. I love you endlessly. Sometimes I think that our memories, the old us are still living out those memories. The past never goes away. There is an us sitting in the back of a car together, there is an us laying up looking at the stars together. But most importantly there is an us that still love each other and are talking about the plans we will have. I know I won’t be able to forgive myself but I will be able to live. Living isn’t anything without you. Sometimes I hope you think about me too. I loved you. This will always be my biggest regret.