Hi Caleb, I just wanted to start this by saying how much you meant to me and how you left me empty. We were so good and had everything it was worth while it lasted. But you were so caught up with your mates telling you what to do you let them get in between us and that’s what hurt too. The state that you left me in the night my heart shattered isn’t even describable. You left me trembling over the toilet because I was about to throw up cause I felt sick at how my heart had sunk. I was lying crying in my bed, my own mum had to comfort me. She had no clue I was broken that night she just knew that I felt sick. To hide such an immense feeling form your own mother just tears me apart. The next week you left me in tears basically everyday. I did nothing but unconditionally love you and do anything you ever wanted me to. When we got back together I felt a tad bit happier in the moment. But later that night you broke me all over again. You told me, you told me what you had did and I just collapsed right there and then on the floor, my mum to rescue again. When you told me, that moment , I felt like nothing was worth living for. And I still do. You don’t see how much I loved you as how much I still have that love for you. I wish you would’ve seen how well I treated you and not have taken how in totally enduced as in love with you I was. In those moments I was with you, we had it all. All. Then the next moment it was all gone and you left me in a mental whole for weeks. Finally getting the courage to text me back a MONTH later we get back together that happens another three times. The last time we got back together I had enough. What you told me that night not only shattered my heart but ripped it into pieces where it can never be fixed. You kissed her. You wanted her. You needed her. And I would never be her. If you could’ve just took a moment for one second to realise how much I loved and cared for you then maybe you’d realise that you needed me. But now I don’t need you but in the back of my heart your still there. And I can’t stop that. I love you Caleb and I always have and always will no matter how much you break me for some reason whenever you come back i just can’t resist. But now, now is different now I don’t need you, now I’m still I’m my worst mental state but at least I’m doing it without you. And if you ever wanted me back. Then you’d have to step it up to my level and if you wanna do that. Climb bitch.