man... we went from classmates to me crushing on you to close friends to strangers... man I spoke too highly of you.

I'm so fucking sorry I cheated on you. I fucking think about it every single day. I fucking wish so bad I could go back in time. I lied to you the entire time. You didn't fucking deserve that. I'm so sorry. I want so bad to be back with you. I never intended to cheat on you and I'm so so sorry. I think about you every single day. I think about you when I go to bed. I think about you when I hold her hand. I think about you when I give her a hug. I close my eyes and pretend it's you. I'm so fucked up. I'm so fucking sorry. I wish we could've gotten more time together. I wish so bad to have you back. I'm so so sorry.

It’s been 8 months since our first date and 2 since you left. I still miss you everyday. I thought we’d make it.

I still think of you