Im gonna stop entertaining the thought that we are good, were not. Even in the conversation we had youve tried to gaslight me, for having a valid question. And i hate having my feelings belittled, can you imagine the scrutiny i would be under if i texted to see how you were doing? or when i did and you blocked me? you dont get to play the bigger person here for texting me and being amicable, yet, when i do it , its just desperate. If youve been over it for a "while", why did you text me? what is it to you, and stop getting my stupid hopes up because its a waste of energy, and my time. youve always had the upper hand, and i have let you for so long. i am a person with feelings, stop treating me like im not

sometimes i still write about you, you've caused me more pain than i can ever explain but i still miss you