hey u called idk i wanna say i miss u but i dont i just miss my friend n idk u trying to make me jealous makes me laugh cause i really dont care lol that was harsh idk just thanks ig for everything n next time u call me dont call me when im brushing my teeth

I want you so badly, but I know we’re only gonna be just friends by the way you react to others telling you to go for it.

I have to move on it's been 7 years and yet you are STILL in my head and I wish it wasnt this way. I've grown alot but my selfish nature is coming out again and I cant continue barely seeing you on social media anymore either. My heart still hurts to this day, it's like that morning when I broke into tears in that cafeteria all over again. I'm getting too comfortable, too brave with my feelings again and it cant be that way at all anymore. I say I'm engaged and all but I hold out hope for you still even though I know it's a delusion on all fronts. I'm so glad we dont live near one another anymore. You work really close to my fiancé though and I've been tempted to go there to see you but I wont. I refuse even when he offers to order there I turn him down because I dont want you to show up when I'm at his parents house visiting. I wont tell him why, I just say I dislike the food. I never really forgot you over the years but I kept myself distracted for a really long time but now its eating me up inside. I wonder if anyone ever loved you as purely as I did and if you regret what happened but ots not my place and given what I've just done, going alittle crazy you probably dont. You probably never think of me and when you do it probably isn't good things. You probably dont think about the times youd walk me home, the times I'd come over and lay on your bed with you that summer and how I got comfortable with your family to an extent even if I was being judged. The times when we would walk around the complex right next to eachother but never quite holding hands or how youd tickle me on the bus on the way home and how I'd act like I was scared of a certain Futurama character just so you would play with me even if it was ridiculous. Those times were so pure and are very dear to me I've never forgotten. I've also never forgotten how things changed after that call either and how you started breaking from me emotionally either, how we would still care for eachother but I became to much of an emotionally heavy burden for you too. How you weren't ready for that and how I was overbearing and you were only a teenager and I expected way too much and I dug my own grave as well. You cant mistake that though, the way I felt and how I genuinely loved you. I wondered if you knew how bad it broke me but I'm sure you did. It wasnt hard to tell. I think the most embarrassed I ever felt was when I sent you that google translated message on Tumblr just to walk to your house in the rain and be sorely rejected yet again even though I knew it was an incredibly strong possibility. I'm 23 and I still think about these things while being in a 4 year relationship with a man who loves me the way I loved you and hes so good to me and yet I'm still stuck on what could have been even if I know he is the best man I've ever come across (after you) and I just know I wont find better and I cant break his heart by telling him I wish it would've been you and there is no definite for us anyways. I like to think you'll come back to me someday in the future no matter how unbelievable it may be. I dont know much about your life these days or your current girlfriend (shes very pretty though) I really hope she makes you so happy and I wish you all the blessings and luck you could ever receive because even though it isnt me and he isnt you we both deserve happiness and stability. You were so sweet to me when I confessed again a couple weeks back, you're still as likeable as I remembered, I thought youd be incredibly cold and thank you for always hearing me out but it's time for me to stop.... actually its beyond time and has been for SOME time. ?

No, my mind refuses to believe remembering how it was back in the days. It’s not possible you were faking it.

I'm lost on what that's about. I'm confused now.

Congratulations on the baby. I wish it was ours.

im sorry for being overdramatic and everything else. imy

Im sorry that i still think about you, but please forgive me.

I think about you constantly, I miss you, thank you for being an experience.

i hate how you broke my heart but it still longs for you

i want to talk with you so bad but im too scared. please reach out first and let’s just be normal

hey, im sorry. I wonder how often you think of me. miss you but maybe in the next universe?

I miss you. So much.

I don't want to be the one to hold you back. Be with who you want, but I'll always love you.