hi dad!
i miss hanging out with you, golfing this weekend was the most fun we've had together since the Gate River Run (boy was that fun). i wanted to thank you but also you aren't the best for me. this is hard because you are my father and you have always unwaveringly supported me since day one, and for that i will be forever thankful. you have shown me unconditional love and support for 19 years and have always financially backed me in any major decision, which i am blessed to have. but you have also torn apart our family. you treat your wife as though she is lucky to have you when all she does is fill your life with sunshine and rainbows. mom is the nicest kindest hearted woman i have ever met and to see you act as though she is disposable is absolutely heartbreaking and makes relationships seem scary and unattainable, or at least insanely finite or toxic. the way you treat my sisters also horrifies me, to see you have so much hate and lack of respect towards my own SISTERS. but the day that you didn't believe me when i said i was sexually assaulted, or rather believed me but didn't care enough to want to kill the people that hurt me like that, damn that fucking hurt like a bitch. i forgive you, because i know you mean best and truly care for me, but that shit hurt man. hurt bad. definitely scarred me and now i probably have trust or commitment issues, i don't know. we'll figure it out, i think i'll grow out of this with time. i still love you always daddio, and i will always be your little girl