i have so many regrets, i wish i just knew what to do, i wish that i wasn’t like this. i know trying to be perfect and only striving for that is a bad thing and i know we’ve discussed that before, but i can’t help but to just constantly put myself down looking at every one of my mistakes and looking at what it’s cost me. you have no idea how much i’d do to restore your feeling of love for me and jus help you get out of the sadness you’re in right now. you truly deserve the world and i’d put down anything to give it to you. i wish i could more clearly show my feelings and i wish i was able to accomplish what you want me to do. i just want you to be in my arms again and i’d do anything for that, that feeling of completeness that overwhelming feeling of love that you give me whenever i’m physically around you. i wish i could do so many things with you and i’m sorry that i never took advantage of them time that we had together in person. i wish i cherished that more and i wish i took better care of you, please recognize that i’m trying to do so ok i’m learning and i’m doing my best to help and be better ok. i know i say that a lot but only because it’s true, you mean the fucking world to me and i’d do anything to help you and help you get rid of all of this sadness that you have and jus make sure you know you’re loved by me and that i’ll always fucking love you, i love you eternally.

i’m sorry i’m failing so much and i’m sorry that i’m getting so fucking caught up with myself and jus being a bad person i’m :(( trying so hard to jus make everything better and i’m sorry if i’m failing or i’m making you lose interest but it hurts so fuckijg much knowing you might leave forever and i don’t want that to happen so fucking badly i just want you forever :(( please be fucking mine i’ll fix everything i promise :(