hey.
we haven't talked in months now. I'm sorry. i never wanted to hurt you like that. I'm sorry for acting on my feelings and being impulsive instead of thinking it through. at that moment, i didn't think that asking someone to join our gc was a bad idea. that gc was something precious to us. it still is a precious thing to me.
i said something wrong. i said something i didn't think. I'm sorry. i will always regret it.
i thought you were my platonic soulmate. you showed me comfort, love, everything. i don't know what got into me.
I'm sorry for running away. for cutting contacts. sometimes, i act like i don't care when in reality, i pray to at least be able to talk to you.
i don't deserve you. not after that. but promise that you'll stay safe and happy. you deserve all the happiness in this world, especially after all the craps you went through. you deserve more love. more than i could show. I love you.
if you ever want to talk, you have my phone number :)