I cannot seem to find the right words when it comes to describing how I feel. I just want to scream at the top of lungs about how much I wish you were mine, I know we could never be a thing as you have told me many times before but I have never loved someone as much as I love you. It hurts me to see you so happy with him, maybe if you weren’t so afraid of what could happen between us you would discover how fucking great I am. I didn’t understand why you would keep going back to someone who used and cheated on you, until I realised I do the exact same thing with you. No matter how many sleepless night I spent crying over you or how many times I wish I was good enough for you I still go back to you. It’s not fair that everyone gets their partner easy without having to put up fight, I just fucking wished you weren’t afraid to be with another girl. I wish people would normalise the fact that two girls can love each other! We could be so happy with each other yet you let fear stand in the way. I have decided that as I’m going into the new year that I’m not going to continue fighting for you, I shouldn’t have to put myself through that pain just because I love you and you don’t love me back. I hope you have a good life Caitlyn and I will continue to support you as a friend but I’m not going to be around when you finally realise how fucking lucky you would be to have me as your girlfriend.

HEY MISS CAITLYN. where do i start. you’re so so so gorgeous and the fact that you can’t see that truly does make me so sad. everyone around you knows how pretty you are unfortunately it seems like you’re the only one who doesn’t missy. one day you WILL realize it and i hope this has some affect but things may but hard now, just know they’re gonna get a lot better. i enjoy our talks about anime and random shit and how it’s just a long conversation running off different topics. i hope that you realize how worthy you are because you truly are :)

you are absolutely stunning and i 100% mean that and wish that i could have the confidence, experience, and skills you have

i miss u more than u think. i shouldnt have broken up with you. maybe, i love you? but you prob will never find that out. i hope you find happiness with someone who can treat u better than me x

You left me while I was in a bad place. I couldn’t control myself after. I’m sorry I acted the way I did.

even though we aren’t together every time i get a text from you i seem to have this big smile on my face still you were my star in a dark night always leading towards the right direction and it wasn’t about how beautiful i mean stunning you were to me but it was who you were as a person you were always so determined outgoing and don’t get me started on how hilarious and goofy and so caring you always were there for me like i was there for you, i always loved saying goodnight to you on ft and going to sleep happy knowing you were right there on the phone with me i’m sorry but i love you caitlyn and i hope one day i have a chance to make you happy again

The thing is I love you like crazy I would spend the rest of my life with you but the sad thing is no matter how much I love you or what I feel for you it isn’t mutual. Since the beginning I’ve always had a thing for you but the truth is you’ve never felt the same way and it kills me every night before I go to bed thinking about what I could do or say to change that but the thing is I can’t and I just have to accept that. I guess best friends is just all we will ever be. Thanks for the smiles and teaching me a lot wether you knew it or not

Well you did it again. Said you’d be there and you weren’t. I guess its my fault because I believed it. Well anyways, get well soon. Since you’re so sick

I can’t wait until I’m done letting you lie right to my face and using me because I’m going to explode and maybe then you’ll finally learn that people aren’t just there for your disposal.

u are literally the most fun and funniest person i have ever met, u always know how to lighten the mood and start a conversation. i'm so glad we became friends bc ur honestly so mf cool and swag and just great honestly, ily homie

you hurt. even your name leaves a bitter taste in my mouth, please i’m begging you, don’t leave me. you didn’t care ab me

I wish I would have never fucked up and hurt you so badly. I remember when we used to lay in bed and just stare at each other ,and I thought to my self I am so lucky ,thank you God. Since the first day I saw you in class I knew you were the one. You made me, me. Thank you for every thing. I am sorry. I truly am.

i wish you knew how in love with you i am. even though i’m probably not the right person for you anymore, i still don’t give up and it probably gets annoying but my heart just won’t let me let go and truthfully i don’t want to. i just want to treat you like the princess you are, my princess, but i’m starting to realize if we’re meant to be it doesn’t have to happen now we will find eachother, and i’ll be there. i will never find a girl like you ever. you are something speacial; perfect, beautiful, and so many other things. i love you.

everything seems to remind me of you, and it brings me joy but it hurts at the same time. i just wish i knew what was going through your mind. like when we see each other in the hall it just makes me happy at the sight of you and it makes my heart melt. i really love you and i hope you do realize that. my love for you was never fake i meant it every time i said it or showed it. truthfully i have been struggling bc i’m getting attached and i don’t want to lose you again. you’re just so special and perfect to me. you’re just constantly living in my mind rent free. i just want my little baby back in my arms. i could be in the darkest times and just your laugh or smile or presence makes me shine again. i remember when we used to make each other happy and it was the best days of my life. and i miss all those memories but i’m not in love with the memories like i am in love with you caitlyn elizabeth mulvihill i miss you so much everyday. you’re constantly on my mind and honestly i don’t mind it but anyways i love you caitlyn.

my heart melts every time i’m with you or talking to you i just fall more deeply in love with you even tho we’re not together anymore i still find myself feeling the same way you are like an angel the most beautiful girl i’ve ever seen inside and out you are just something else to me and my heart is attached i always wanted to know what our first girls or first boys names were gonna be when the time came but it’s okay because it made me have a realization or a wake up call to life bc i fell so deep into problems and i felt like i couldn’t get out and i finally snapped out of it and now i’m a better person the person i would’ve like to be back then but i’ll miss you and ofc i’ll miss her too?

You belittled me, you made me feel awful about myself. I cant wait to prove you wrong one day. It doesnt mean that i didnt appreciate our friendship. It was fun while it lasted

we fell asleep on ft last night wether it was accidental or not it made me wake up happy. there’s not a day that goes by that you’re not on my mind. it may not be time now, but i hope our time to be together will come in the future. i miss the way you used to smile at me, the way you jumped in my bed and calling for me like a baby. my baby. i miss so much i miss you just being in my every day life. wether it was waking up to a morning text or saying i love you for the first time of the day i pray some day you will find happiness wether it is with me or not i just want you to be happy. my favorite picture of you represents so much more to me than you think. you think it’s ugly, but what i see is you smiling, you being happy, and perfection. i love you caitlyn.

Caitlyn I really don’t know what’s going on with you but I hope it’s over soon. You’re lying now and that’s not you. I was your best friend and now I think you just keep me around just in case he leaves. I love you lots and always will. You can tell me anything, keep that in mind.

You made such a difference in my life

You mean everything to me. please baby please don’t leave. i wanna marry you

I can never forgive what you did to me❤️

You were a bad friend to me. Please change for the better.

girl i’m so inlove with u

I know u hate me but I am thankful for everything I prayed u get the love n peace I couldn't give u

Thank you for teaching me what falling in love feels like.

I see you everywhere and in everything I look at.

i miss you more than anything in this world hunny. I sould do anything just to hold you agian.

i pray for you the most. this world has been cruel to you.

youre my best friend. i love you<33

I wish you never ghosted me.

maybe in another life

It’s hard being stuck between two thing, especially when one of those things are you.

do you still see me as your moon? you’re still my sunshine

I should’ve choose you instead..i miss you

I haven’t seen you in years but I still think of you sometimes. Thanks for being my friend.

i miss you but at the same time im so glad u ghosted me, id love to know why tho.

I still look at the moon and think of you. I hope to see your hazel eyes again. I’m sorry.

Miss you chicken

i miss you. i miss us.

I miss ur sassyness, and everything else abt u. Miss playing Fort with u to:(

sorry for leaving you back then. I know it'll never be the same between us. Sorry, cheesecake.

i wish you’d tell me what’s wrong instead of ignoring me, i would fix it in an instant if i knew

I know you hate me but I miss your hazel eyes everyday

I still think of you when I look at the moon

it’s not summer without you. i miss you.

you broke my heart

I regret not speaking to you in person when I had the chances.

im glad its over

I miss you so much goofy. I’m so proud of you

i miss what we had.