i don’t even know how to start this but, i really love you. love that is out of this world. love that is different than just a close friend love. the love i feel for you is just... different. ever since i first met you, you were just always so perfect. i saw past everything anyone’s ever said about you. i looked past all the “player” and “f-boy” stuff that people said. i just saw you. i saw care, and trust, and i saw the sadness in your eyes that no one else saw. i saw that sadness in your eyes that caused you to be the way you were. the brown eyes.. god. i get so lost in them. it’s like every time i look into your eyes all of my problems seem to melt away into nothing. it seems as if everything bad just simply vanished. i immediately fell. and i thought to myself “why would he even think to be my friend?” but i will never regret snapping you that one day. that’s what started all this. just 3 months ago, it lead to you being my first love. the first person i looked at and never second guessed my feelings. i just knew that i liked you. i knew it. i didn’t care if you liked me back. i just knew that it was you. it’s like as if you had some sort of power, that just with the look into someone’s eyes you could immediately make them fall. it’s something i’ve never felt before. and suddenly you started giving me this affection i haven’t felt from a guy.. ever. all those heartfelt compliments made me feel so wanted. the first time you said “i love you” to me is something i will never in my entire life forget. you were my only happiness. you are my only happiness. just the thought of you lights up my day. even if i had the shittiest day, just your voice makes it better. wow... your voice. it’s like a voice of a thousand angels. your voice could make me fall asleep in a second. your voice makes all my problems go away in less than a millisecond. as if it were some kind of spell. and your smile, your damn smile. your smile makes me so weak. anytime you smile i get so lost. as if you were the path out. your smile.... i have no words when i see that smile. it’s contagious. it really is. and your laugh, your real laugh, something that you try to cover up far too often. the most adorable thing i’ve ever heard. if i could hear something forever it would be your laugh. and the small, stupid comments you make on facetime make my day. no matter how much you hurt me, i’ll wait for you. you’ve hurt me so, so damn much. but i’ll always be there to wait for you to come back no matter what happens. you are the reason i’m alive. i lived for you. i still live for you. i forever will. i love you so much. so so so damn much.