And if by chance you DIDNT write that. WELL. Everything I said still stands just that now I’ll jump out a window from embarrassment ?

I'm so sorry for doing. But it was too much. They told me to stay for you but just this once I had to be selfish, so If I didn't do it just know it wasn't for you, you didn't help at all. But your my dad so of course they see nothing wrong

I feel so lame for always finding an excuse to come back on here and write how I miss you. nothing will come of it I just know it. I’m holding on to essentially nothing at this point. But why... why does it have to be like this? I hate it so much. I just want you back in my life. But I could never say this to you because, well for one thing I’m TERRIFIED. And two, considering you’re the one that cut ties, I don’t think I have a right to reach out. I hate everything, except you. I wish I hated you.. then moving on would be easier. I’m so pathetic

get better soon!! I'll always be rooting for ya. imy.